That night, while Beck sleeps, Joe slips out and returns to the bookstore basement. Benji is still alive—barely. Dehydrated, terrified, and reduced to begging. Joe ignores him. Instead, he opens his leather-bound journal and begins a new section: Dr. Nicky.
But then Joe sees him : a tall, handsome, effortlessly confident man in a tweed jacket. Dr. Nicky, Beck’s therapist. The very same therapist Beck has been seeing to “work through her issues.” Joe watches, his jaw tightening, as Beck touches Nicky’s arm, leans in too close, and laughs at his stupid joke. The betrayal isn’t real—it’s just friendly conversation—but in Joe’s mind, it’s an affair. you s01e05 aiff
The episode opens with a deceptively peaceful morning. Joe Goldberg wakes up not in his own bed, but in Beck’s cramped, book-strewn apartment. He’s not a visitor; he’s moved in. After engineering the breakup between Beck and her toxic, controlling boyfriend Benji, Joe has smoothly transitioned from “the nice guy from the bookstore” to Beck’s live-in savior. Beck, still fragile and grateful, has accepted his offer to stay “just until things settle down.” That night, while Beck sleeps, Joe slips out
The apartment still smells of Benji. Joe finds an expensive bottle of organic mouthwash in the bathroom, a gluten-free cookbook on the shelf, and—most infuriatingly—a half-empty jar of artisanal peanut butter in the pantry. Each object is a silent taunt. Joe’s obsessive-compulsive nature rebels against the chaos, but more than that, he resents Benji’s lingering presence in Beck’s space. He scrubs the apartment top to bottom, not out of kindness, but to erase his rival. Joe ignores him
Joe sees himself in Paco—a trapped boy desperate for a hero. He gives Paco a first edition of The Count of Monte Cristo , telling him, “Edmond Dantès was locked up for years. But he learned patience. He learned how to wait for the right moment to escape. And then he destroyed every single person who wronged him.” Paco’s eyes light up. Joe has just handed him a blueprint for vengeance.
On the walk home, Joe interrogates Beck. “Your therapist. He’s a little… familiar, don’t you think?” Beck brushes it off: “He’s just nice, Joe. He helps me.” Joe’s internal monologue rages: Helps you? He wants to sleep with you. I’m the one who saved you. I’m the one who killed for you.
The central crisis of the episode arrives when Beck gets a call from her professor. Her MFA workshop is meeting at a bar downtown, and she wants Joe to come. Reluctantly, he agrees. At the bar, Beck is vibrant, laughing with her peers—including her ex, the self-absorbed poet Benji (who, unbeknownst to everyone but Joe, is currently locked in a glass cage in the bookstore’s basement).